~fall apart~ part 2

i feel like crying...

badly...

why?

i don't know...

i feel like a fool...

i feel like a damn fool person.... **but i still clever**

my heartache..

badly..

but, i guess its my fault...

why do i have to read all of that messages...

am i jealous?

yes i'm!!

but that happened before!!

but still!!

why not to me??

why when its come to me, there are so many excuses...

my fobia come again...

lead to insecure feeling...

and less trust...

and that killing me...

badly...

i don't want to cry anymore..

not anymore...

i want to be strong girl no matter what..

as i'm before...

i have to accept it...

i have to accept everything...

his past and my past...

both, already past...

nothing should be bothered me...

please GOD....

give me strength...

to go through everything...

until the time come....